Habanera.

Life has decided to throw me a series of forks in the road...AGAIN. To be honest, I'm tired of having to rearrange my life constantly. As much as I like spontaneity, I find that I'm longing for something stable in my life. I plan time and time again and the plans never stay the same. It keeps life interesting, but sometimes it's a little discomforting not to know. Not that I want to know. I don't want to know...I don't wish to know my life planned down to a line or list or this blog.

Maybe the constant thrush of paths I can choose from is fate giving me chances to be happy. But I wish the paths I had to choose from weren't so complicated no matter which path I choose to take. I know, I KNOW - that's life. Answers aren't supposed to come easy. But is ONE stable thing too much to ask? I love how high school was perfect and planned and everything since then falls to pieces or completely throws a curve ball just when I start to get comfortable.

I love school, but I just want to get it over with so I can see the world. I'm sick of being in Texas.
I want to travel (on one condition...) around the US and establish my improv self and see Europe and start a part-time band and sleep in a Toys R US store and learn the glockenspiel.
I don't care anymore, I'm going to do it all and you can't stop me. School can. School does... but I'll be a better person for it. A year from now I'll have graduated and be on the brink of 23. I have to admit that being twenty-one has been the best thing that has ever happened to me and I wouldn't change one thing about this past year for the world besides a few months of blahness I don't wish to go into. But that's over and done with and I'm over it. I've met wonderful new people, lost some really close ones and had to try to re-establish myself all over again, which hasn't been easy, but I'm progressing I'd say.

There's no point to this blog. I felt like writing which turned into venting. I'm listening to the Ruby Suns. It's comforting. I slept 14 hours today thanks to my best friend, nyquil. My foot is healing and I can walk on it again. I have four days left of 'summer' vacation. I'm going to Round Rock tomorrow to see a giant donut. One of my best friends is coming sunday. I still feel like dancing. I never realized how much I missed huevos rancheros. I tippy-toe to get around. Life is content. But still...I want more. :)


I love when videos have this type of feel...
...it makes me so happy.